As I sit here thinking about the events of the next 48 hours, I am in awe just thinking of how all this is going to work. In just a few short hours my life will be drastically changed, I will start to look different in just a few short weeks. my habits will be completely different in the matter of days. if you haven't figured it out yet, or i haven't told you then please let me fill you in. one year ago I walked into a surgeons office with the intent of having Gastric Bypass, now if you are unfamiliar with what this is, let me give you a brief run down. they make your stomach the size of an egg and then reroute your small intestine to make you not absorb the calories as well. a little drastic you might say, well a few years ago i would have agreed, and then my dad died due to complications from his diabetes.
This is the point where I realized i needed to make a change, this is the point where i promised myself i would never get into dads situation, thus fast forward to tonight. I sit here listening to My Chemical romance, thinking about the future, thinking about the future and all it has for me i cant help but think to myself. "should i be worried about this" the reason why i say this is because everyone i have told keeps asking me "aren't you worried about the surgery" and i give the same response everytime, because honestly i am not worried at all, i have been at peace with this decision since i heard monday that it was approved. i know i should have a little bit of concern, because, well it is a major surgery, BUT i know my God is bigger than this and that he will get me through it. but brandon aren't you afraid to die, you might ask? well no actually, i have spent a lot of time contemplating on how i feel about the prospect of me dying during surgery tomorrow and it all boils down to this. either way i am in a win-win situation, I will either make it out of this alive and become healthy and skinny within the next year OR i will die during surgery and be with my heavenly father and my earthly dad, i would certainly prefer the former but if the latter happens i will be fine. so yes in less than 8 hours i will be heading into surgery to start this new chapter of my life and i felt like i needed to get it written down.!
